Inner Child Drawing
I drew it with left hand, I am right handed myself.
It gives a more subconscious way of drawing.
I wrote my inner child letter some months ago, also with my left hand.
It was a challenge in frustration about details
I really had to control myself to not wanting to use my right hand to correct things
I cleaned up so much today, wich I needed
Integrated my inner father who is left handed
He always was very controlling and correcting my drawings, all of me, but specifically art wise
(Both of my parents are very artistic)
But both of them have a life of heroin use
So first thing I ever did coming to earth was kick of that…
Which was very heavy
My dad also always said he did not want me
This all is coming up while cleaning my mess I built up last months
And my father
never ever cleaned in his life
And my inner mother who felt like part of motherhood is being overwhelmed
by cleaning, cooking etc… all alone
And both of them lacking structure…
And is still a work in progress
I am proud, feeling a lot in this drawing
It reminds me of a Persian symbol, the Paisley motive
And that symbol I wanted to draw as a child
But I could not towards my own expectations
My inner child was proud she could do this now
The baby appeared, and looks organic and multidimensional… and has wings
It all says something about my core potential
Inner eye visons
And I love to turn it around, in natural birth position… And it forms a yin yang shape
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